Aligned life

 What does it mean to live an aligned life?

And what happens when you don’t live one? When your dreams, passion and life purpose don’t align with what you actually do.

And do we have to really follow our passion? Or is passion an illusion? A fantasy, a place we created to run away to when life gets tough or when we feel the need and urge to escape?

Im writing this because this could be one of my lifes biggest dilemmas, from studying to working to many of my life choices, I have always been ruled by my passions, by what I love and what my heart beats for but then and not suddenly, but rather when I couldn’t work what I love, I was faced by reality, maybe I should command to what life gives, to bow to it, to accept whats been given, maybe passion and like its been said is an illusion…something we love but not actually pursue.

and I stuck with this rational, moved with it, followed these sentences and followed not my heart but what appeared then as the easy path.

And what happened? Without noticing…little by little, slowly, very slowely…I started disconnecting not from myself…it was like my passions never exesisted and in very rare honest days when I remembered my passion I gave myself another reason no to follow “maybe it wasn’t even a passion”, “I wasn’t meant to do it”, “im not good enough”, here is the right path…lets continue where we are…

And the gap started extending growing bigger and bigger and I started idscconecting more…

Then like a miracle, or never a miracle rather an inner glow that waits for the right time to light…I \ moved slowely, hesitant, unsure with no expectations…just walking…where will I go? What will happen next? Any plans in my hands? Nothing…but you know what? Somehow…and as ive written before the path does show…but what also happens…is that another different path shows to…something like the one you’ve moved into bfore got dragged inside…caved…robbed…by your choice…you move back to jail…and alignment? Is no more there…

The hard part is to continue following…to continue moving in the right direction for you because no matter who tells you what…following your passion and doing so while believing in yourself is harder than you think…

Or maybe its jjust me…my very personal experience...

I had to write this…to urge myself to aligne and never disconnect again…because the lesson should have been already learnt…